Mortality

Sometimes I think I'm just waiting to die.  As we get older, death becomes inevitable.  The question becomes when and how.  Two days ago I went through a colonoscopy procedure and they found a large mass in my colon.   The doctor sat me down and described what he found.  The way he presented it was neutral.  It could be cancer or it could me benign.

It wasn't until the next day I actually read the medical report.  It said it was malignant.  I started getting phone calls that same afternoon of the procedure from Drs. offices and nurses scheduling appointments.   Blood tests, CT scans, Surgeon, Oncologist, etc. I feel as though I have the needle marks of a junkie from all the different blood tests.

As the day goes by, especially during the quiet of the late night, I just sit and think i'm sitting here watching tv just waiting to die.

So begins my journey of hope and destiny.  It may long and hopeful or it may be disappointment and short.