◾"I'm a doctor, not an engineer." Dr. Leonard McCoy, Star Fleet

Medicine is definitely not an exact science.  At least with the car, I can plug in a diagnostic tool to give me a pretty good idea of what is wrong.   With all the blood drawn, tests, and expert medical opinion, they are not able to determine what my exact condition is.  Where is that medical Tricorder (I googled it) that Bones uses on Star Trek?

It is a bit unsettling for me to have my condition out there and of course, one of the contributors is this blog.  It is the vulnerability due to the exposure that bothers me.  But I am more accepting of it. Why is this time different?  Is it fatigue from old age, maturity (nah), wisdom (nah), or indifference?  It is definitely not for the attention.  This time around, I am actually more concerned for my future on earth.

It is definitely tied to the grandkids.  After Cam and Emerson, I was actually looking forward to seeing Jordan and Jared’s kids.  Will I get to see them? Will there be a grand daughter? Will I get to see them grow up? It thrills me to hear of births of the new generation among the family and friends.  For some reason they give me hope, even though this world is going out of whack.  I was looking forward getting old and see them grow up. 

Maybe it is this hope in our next generation that allows me to feel more comfortable with the vulnerability.  What carries us through our trials and tribulations is hope.  Hope is tied into all those around us.  It is communicated, transmitted, shared, encouraged through vulnerability.

Kind of a reach, but it works for me.