The Appointment

The appointment was with the Oncologist to discuss the results of the recent CT scan, Colonoscopy and Blood Test.  I have to admit there was some anxiety before the appointment resulting in a few sleepless nights.  What if?  Well, the results are positive (in the good sense).  No evidence of polyps and the surgery removing part of the colon looks good.  The CT scan shows no sign of cancer and the blood test is negative for cancer markers.

Am I relieved?  Sort of.  I have an adversion to the term "remission".  To me, that word means it can come roaring back, that the cancer free condition is temporary.  Well, maybe it is an accurate description,  I just read a blog by Kristen Lummis on her experience with cancer and Lynch syndrome and this quote sums it up the best:

And the conversation goes something like this.
“But you’re okay right? You don’t have cancer anymore.” And technically, I am okay, but as I’ve learned from other cancer survivors, even if we have no evidence of disease, we still carry the emotional scars of cancer and a fear of recurrence. It’s part of our permanent baggage.

We are checking into some findings in the CT scan that the Dr. considers to be not unusual and not related to cancer.  Just another Dr. appointment with a different specialist.

On the bright side of things, we got to see the new addition Ellie during our visit up in Seattle.  What a cutie!!