Music is often the most common jogger of our memories. I can listen to a song and remember a certain time of my life. The Classic IV songs bring me back to junior high school. Certain songs from 3 Dog Night and Tommy James take me back to the first summer I moved to Vancouver Wa. Crystal Blue Persuasion will kick in strong emotional memories.
I don't spend a lot of time reminiscing about chemo therapy. Those are memories I would rather ignore (they somehow can't be erased). But as I was channel surfing (it's two in the morning) I came across a news station displaying their daily weather report with their distinctive tune in the background. I use to watch that news channel late into the morning, laying in bed feeling like yuck. The still of the night, silent other than the sound of the tv, the isolation of being in a room by myself. The tune just hit a nerve and sent a chill down my spine. It was one of those things that make your body shudder involuntarily. I actually felt the yuck for a moment during the shudder.
This was the second reminder this week. I came into contact by chance, someone who went through a similar experience with colon cancer during the same time as I did. When he shared his experience, there was an instant bond of understanding. The surgery, the chemo and it's after affects. That was the first time for me and I'm not sure how to process it.
Our lives are unique, as unique as our personalities that we are created and born with. At this stage of my life, it just makes me wonder why.
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