Consequences

I have to admit, after 3 years, I am starting to understand the after affects of my colon cancer.  I am still classified as one of those, a cancer survivor.  I commiserate with my fellow survivor at work.  I am more fortunate than her as she has severe side affects, but she also inspires me to go on.

I find myself feeling sore in the fingers at night more when I'm using them extensively during the day. Fix it projects and things to do list items still require manual dexterity.  The more they are used, the more the stiffness similar to what I guess arthritis sufferers feel.  Mine are from the knuckles up.

I still pace myself.  If I work longer than my allotted eight hours, im useless the rest of the night and the next day.  I recently took a day off from work, but it cancelled the purpose out as I had worked 10 hours the day before and need the day off to recover and then some.

I limit my time in the sun, I limit the length in time of projects, I take additional supplements and seem to be adding more each month.  My BP and heart meds make up a small minority in my pill box.  I do check my poop at each occurrence.  Yeah, it's a little weird, but it is to see if blood ever shows up again.  You do notice which type of food does not decompose as much in the digestive system.

But the psychological after affects are what bothers me most.  Most of which I haven't even begun to deal with.  Just starting to recognize as "issues".  The most difficult aspect of it all is determining which have always been there and which are new.  I have been finding that most of them are pre existing.  And that the new ones are by products of the pre existing ones.

Damn,  the wife was right again....