Tuesday, April 18, 2023

Fear of Success

Recently my picture, or I should say a photo from my latest film has been chosen as the representative of the Digital Histories Senior video class set of films for this year's LA Asian Pacific Film Festival.  My film is on my observations of aging and has a picture of me examining myself in my bathroom mirror. For anyone looking up the program, they will see that picture.  Autographs in the lobby after the showing.  I pay you.

https://festival.vcmedia.org/2023/programs/digital-histories-2023/

After  six years of film making, my latest film has been chosen at a few film festivals.  Nichibei in the Bay Area, Disorient in Eugene, Or, and at the Gardena JCI.  Now you would think this is a validation of my film creativity and work, but it is more a matter of timing and luck.

Most film festivals have a theme and my film last year on a Santa Clara Judge and his flag signing project honoring WWII Japanese American Incarcerees happen to fit in.  I can honestly say it is more of the subject vs the film itself.  It is usually shown in a shorts program with other short films.  They are wonderful films, created by talented film makers.  After viewing them my wife looks at me and says "you need to up your game" and I agree.

There is always a fear, of not of failure, but of the fall from success.  There is always the fear of when walking assuredly, of tripping. Let's hope the perspective keeps me grounded.  

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